I’ve been off the grid for a few days between Christmas and New Years creating and preparing to embrace 2017. I like to pick a word at the beginning of the year to set the tone for my goal setting. It keeps me somewhat focused as I head into the bliss of a new year. The new year always feels like a new beginning, a fresh start. I like to think of placing all my past years ugliness in a suitcase and setting it out for the man in brown to pick up and take to the land of let it go. That baggage is gone, thank you my wonderful man in brown!
My word for 2016 was Vulnerability. I pretty much killed it with that word. When I stepped into the Montana Artrepreneur Program I placed myself in a very vulnerable position. I knew going into 2016 I would be facing a ton of fears with my art journey. I’m sure that is why I picked the word vulnerability. Many times it felt like I stepped off the edge of a diving board into the deep end of the pool. Coming close to drowning, only to be pulled up and resuscitated by my support team. They do good CPR apparently because I needed their support often in 2016. Towards the end of the year I finally realized that all that time my fear was knocking hard on me, pushing me again and again. That is what vulnerability is about, facing your fears. I struggled endlessly, turmoil in the depth of my soul, until finally I admitted to my peers that I was struggling. At one point I felt I no longer wanted to be an artist. It wasn’t until in November that I told my sister I wasn’t sure I wanted to create. The stress of it all was becoming unbearable at times. She said she could not imagine me ever not painting. Imagine, imagine, again, imagine… I had to chew on fear and spit it out. Damn, she is such a great sister to love me that much. I needed straight forward talk and she is good at that with me. She said a few other personal words I want to keep for myself cause I just love her that much too. There will always be struggles but my heart tells me I’m over most of the fear. To get to this point I needed to be vulnerable, to face my fears, to begin to heal I had to hurt first. It’s a different hurt than a physical injury, sometimes that might be easier. I have the MAP, all my family, all my artist friends and all my personal friends to thank for helping me pack up my baggage this year and send it off to the land of letting go. You are amazing, you know who you are, bless you.
This years word is Discovery. I am so excited about this years word. Can you “imagine” what I will do with that word! My new Zebra painting with paper collage, a new discovery already. Happiness to each of you as you enter a new year and embrace what your world will seek. I pray for our world and the whole of humanity. I still seek peace and harmony. I always have hope and share kindness when I am able. So much of what we have to give is free so please give as often as you can…blessings in 2017.
My art journey continues as I’ve been given a huge opportunity in August.
The local gallery that represents my art, Toucan Gallery, has asked me to be the featured artist for the upcoming August Art Walk. It truly is an honor and I am so grateful for this opportunity.
The three paintings pictured will be part of a series I am hoping to have on exhibit. I’ve titled this series Whispers of my Soul. When I began to create in my head what I wanted to paint for this exhibit my first thought was my go to art pieces…animals. My Faces of Montana series has been popular, having sold all but one of the originals.
I woke in the middle of the night with the idea of doing something completely different. I still wanted to incorporate my techniques of using layers, recycled papers and a mix of mediums but in a different direction.
This exhibit is a step forward for me in so many ways. I feel as those these paintings are truly Whispers of my Soul. I want to bring my creativity deep within to the surface and express some of the joy I feel while splashing on the paint. Art is such a passion for most artist, we paint how we feel, we paint our lives, our emotions, the whispers of our souls.
The exhibit will have other works as well…I am painting, painting in the studio!
It will all be fabulous and a bit scary, my first “big” exhibit. Feeling ready….and above all, blessed.
Looking back at some of my art journal entries. This one stood out today as I reflect on this journey with my art. The words in this sketch are… never leave your dreams behind. At times our dreams become postponed until our life is ready to seek the path to fulfill them. I do feel so blessed that I have been able to follow my heart and create art…allowing one of my dreams to become reality. I sometimes question where it will lead me but then I stop myself realizing, be mindful and live in this moment, not worrying about what tomorrow will bring.
Wishing your dreams come true!
Starting on a new phase in my art.
I’ve been fortunate to learn so many new techniques and processes in mixed-media in the last several months. Having done my two workshops has humbled me to reach further into myself and step out of my comfort zone. My students were extremely patient with me in my first workshop. My second set of workshops went so, so much better. After returning from the west coast I felt a need to push myself a bit beyond my usual controlled environment. It’s not always easy to let go of wanting everything balanced on that canvas. It’s taken me a bit to let go of controlling the canvas. I can see improvement and feel a smidge more confident. Still, it’s a journey unfolding.
Originally I was determined to wait and not share any of my new pieces. Wanting first to get my inventory built up. But, in the end I’ve become to anxious about it all. Had to post. I’ve completed five new pieces altogether. I am satisfied with all of them but these two small pieces make me smile.
Always continue the climb. It is possible for you to do whatever
you choose, if you first get to know who you are and are
willing to work with a power that is greater
than ourselves to do it.
Ella Wheeler Wilcox